Heart don't fail me now, courage don't desert me, don't look back now that we're heeere.

Three hours until I'm fucked. But I always say this, there is always this constant time limit that I'm racing towards but even if I miss it then I'm never really that fucked. Like if I fail a subject or get a bad grade I'll still be alive. I hate doing hard work. I feel so exhausted by it.

I had an epiphany on the way back from a hippie festival I went to. It was to not see uni as that big a part of my life. In fact to try and make it as small as possible in my mind. But this is hard to do when every assignment feels like running through mud. Energy. That's what I really need. I don't need everything in my life to slow down, or for there to be a whole lot of chances to sleep and take breaks, what I really need is an injection of energy and liveliness so I can live up to the challenges that I want to be facing.

Where do I get energy from? Will enough sleep, a low gi, high kale diet and exercise regime really be enough? Maybe I should try it for awhile and see..