I think because I'm so used to this part of the semester being such a highly anxious one I've started to rely on those feelings of anxiety to motivate me into doing stuff. Who cares if I hit myself, and smash my arms on the hard tiled floor until they swell massively - I get work done once the crying stops.

But now I just feel so calm (Potentially my body has finally realised that to protect itself from harm it must not allow stress in, not to mention how sick i've been because of stress this term)

So now I have to figure out how normal people do this study thing. How they just sit down and do an assignment because its due and don't have a bunch of mental problems to flourish in spite of.